Kiss-ablackrose

2011-05-08T03:22:00.006+08:00

Has been close to 2 months since I last updated my blog. Too lazy to get my hands on this space.

So many things happened throughout these period. Wish all these was just a nightmare that I haven't woke up from. Broke up with the guy that I loved so much. Couldn't explain much of this heartache that I'm feeling. But it's really pulling me all the way down.

"Love doesn’t mean the same thing for everyone but I know what it means to me. It’s loving someone more than yourself, not caring what happens to you because you are willing to sacrifice everything in order for them to feel safe and happy. That’s what love is. Love is sacrifice and it’s selflessness. I love you, too bad you don’t love me."

2536368 9664, I really loved you. I still love you, always have, always will. But you don't love me back, not anymore.

I could give up everything just to have your heart on me again. But I'm too tired to fight for it. I'm afraid, I don't know what I'm afraid of, but I just have this unknown fear within me. It's more than distance between us now. Nothing could probably change your mind already.

I don't know what to say or what to do to make you come back, I'm suffering in silence everyday. Yes I put on my best smiles, but who knows that it's just a mask I'm wearing?

Maybe it's true. If we're meant to be we'll find our way back. Fate will decide for me.

I've been keeping up this habit of having a diary. If you ever ever read my diary, you'd probably tear. By then you'd understand how much I loved you. And I'm very sure no one will ever love you the way I do.

I'm really quite tired... This will probably be the last time I'm mentioning all these in my blog already. Shall keep everything to myself from now onwards.

2011-03-26T00:02:00.001+08:00

Need to rant so badly. I don't know who I can turn to cus I know nobody knows exactly how I feel. Sometimes I really think keeping things to myself may be the best after all. Know why? People may have heard what you've done, but they don't know what you've gone through.

I'm really confused. I don't know if I'm making the right choice. My instinct tells me yes, but my heart tells me no. Actually I don't think all this matter anymore, but I just can't get over it. I can't go over tht this 7 months is all wasted. And my heart aches so so so much. I can't find words to say anymore.

You know what hurts me most? It's tht you're not putting in any effort. Remember tht morning when I asked if we shld continue this r/s, you told me yes. And you said, 'we'll try'. But no, it's still the same. Maybe our relationship really didn't matter to you long ago, I guess. You should have told me this long ago.

Sometimes I really feel like screaming 'fuck you' in your face so badly. Why would a couple not contact? Why would a guy not care about his girl? Why would a guy take his girl for granted? You fucking disappoint me to no extent. You know what? You've hurt me so much tht when people ask me, 'how do you feel?', I can actually answer them 'Oh I'm used to it'

If you think you're better off without me, then what's the point of holding onto this relationship? Now you tell me.

Never going to believe in love again. Love is fucking bullshit.

2011-03-25T22:56:00.007+08:00

Pictures taken at the chalet during the march holidays :)

It was pretty much crowded at the chalet that night. And I love the ambience :) Had a bonding session with the clique as well! Hehehehe love you guys muackies! And we watched ju-on in the room and it totally scare the fuck outta me. Bth sia really, damn scary! Or maybe I'm too timid? Oh yes and my dear Eva kicked me off the bed during the show and I totally went 'WTF?!?!?!' Laugh till peng.

Cabbed over to Eunos aftermath to find Cwwh and Sean while Eva joined us aftermath. Couldn't catch much sleep tht night cus somebody was sick.. Ordered mac for lunch the next day and totally nua for the whole afternoon. Wanted to cook porridge for tht sick cat but Eva and I can't find rice in the entire kitchen... Went prawning in the evening and reached home around midnight. Totally K.O after I washed up.

Saturday, hit town with Eva and Sean. Went over to com center to repair my bb. Its less than 2 months old and its giving me problems already lor! But lucky me! They gave me a new bb! :) Shall take good care of it! Hehehehe~

Cabbed over to 216 to accompany Sean to work. Spend the whole night there and I can't stop laughing at how Sean wash the cups. Ended up I had to help him wash. Damn hilarious! And Eva became the cashier for the day as well. Hahaha! Cabbed home around 1am and Eva, Sean and Cwwh came up to my house. They left at 4. Sleepy me ):

Ok so I guess I enjoyed my holidays with the usual people! Can't wait for the next chalet, which will prolly be after O's.

I'm so stressed up these days. Need the motivation to study, urgh.

2011-03-01T21:41:00.010+08:00

Hit town last friday with the girls. Had bff for lunch and I ordered 'Friendly Fire'.
Woah I could totally feel my tongue burning!!!!!!!!! I personally have a high tolerance level for spicy but that one uh.. rly so spicy I couldn't stop drinking water.. I still think macho cheese taste better..

Travelled to bugis aftermath. Wasn't a rly fruitful trip that day.. Cos something unpleasant happened. Oh well..

But still..

We made full use of time and took all the pictures below. Ha ha ha I find it so hilarious, (if you get what I mean)...

Oh I remember buying a pink helium balloon and I wanted to suck the helium but ended up the balloon flew away. SADGIRL95.. If I can manage to get julia to upload the video, I swear it's gna make you laugh till peng seriously. Ok I'm retarded whut?!

Alright got to meet the boy that night as well~ Hehez.

The following day, went for movie @ JP with julia and eva. Caught 'The great great world'. AWESOME!!!!! I don't understand why some people don't like it. The storyline was so great lor! Rate it a 4/5.

Decided to head to bukit batok for steamboat since there's no other places we can go..

And as usual we had a lot of dirty jokes that night... Ha ha ha laugh till my tummy ache...... I seriously love dinner session with them. Never fail to brighten up my whole day. Heh ♥

And then on sunday..

Julia ran away from home. So I went out to meet her. And then we cabbed back to my place at night with the boy.

Hehehe they had dinner at my place and they left after my parents came back.
Oh and my parents were pleased with the boy. Hahaha (;

Okay so that's all for tonight. Will update again the next time I come online.. Which will be.......... a few days ltr?

Because... I've got my new toy ^.^

And my theme is super cute lor it looks like this:

Ok toodles! ♥

2011-02-09T21:50:00.006+08:00

Just a short update. I'm rly tired today so I guess I would blog more tomorrow?

It was my first time ever in my life I took a cable car today! It fucking scare the shit outta me bcos I'm so afraid of heights. I wish you were the one with me during the ride.. And I screamed 'I love you' in the cable car so loudly I hoped you could hear or feel it somehow even though you're far away from me. Ha ha silly me..

Boy I miss you.. What's happening?

Everyone's together. Eva with her S, Elizabeth with her J, where's you and me? Sigh.

And then...

Here's a little paragraph dedicated to my beloved sweetheart:
Hi sweetheart. Cheerup (: Even though you miss him so much, let's all concentrate on our studies first alright? At least you're did spend alot of time before he went in. I love you! We all love you. Muackies <3

2011-02-07T21:46:00.003+08:00

Happy fifth month baby! I love you.

I always believe in this.

'When two people truly love each other, they may fight and break up, but they will always find a way back to each other. Always.'

Now it really did happen on me. I'm so glad we're back together again :)

All the ups and downs we went through in this r/s, it just made me realise how important you mean to me. I never thought we'd be together again and now that we are back as a couple, it just proves we are meant to be.

Even though you're really retarded and you do all the stupid things that make me angry but still, I love you the most. I love you and I always will, forever.

Wo ai ni baobei ^^
XOXOXO.

2011-02-06T13:11:00.010+08:00

Happy cny! Ok.. I know I'm a bit late. But it's only 初四 today so it's okay right? But still, I'm not rly in the festive mood this year. It just doesn't feels like cny to me.. I dno why either. The only 2 things I like about cny are gambling and angbaos. Ha ha ha.

初一 was probably one of the happiest day of my life :) It was only 5am in the morning and I already felt like I could fly like a g6. He he!!

Spent my 初一 at granny's place. Yes la got the most no. of angbaos there! Woohoo happy girl is me! Played banluck but lady luck wasn't with me that day ): $.$ fly. I'm still upset that I lost money!

Went over to lot one to catch 'shaolin' with my cuzzies and some of the adults. It was a 11.45pm show and I was already quite tired by that time as I only had a few hours of sleep..

But...

The movie was so fabulous I managed to keep myself awake! Thumbs up for the movie! Though there were some scenes that were really fucking gross, but I still enjoyed the movie. He he he really worth the watch!

Reached home at around 3am that night and KO straight after.

初二 was spent at theron's house. Ha ha went to his house to gamble. Wtf I laughed till my stomach hurts all thanks to rongzhou (mr porridge). Ha ha really very entertaining ok!

Met my bb boy at bt batok along with eva and sean. Haji lane followed by 216. Vomitted like #&(*(#(#&&^&@ that night and I dno why too. Weak body zzzz hate it.

初三 we spent it at esplanade to celebrate elizabeth's bday.

Happy belated birthday sweetheart! I love you, XOXO. Understand you're in a very difficult situation now. But always remember whatever decision you make you still have all of us with you (: We'll never leave you alone even if the sky falls! Work hard for our O's together and aim to be on the screen next yr ok? And I love it when we always do the same pose when we take pictures. He he he got chemistry right? (; Love ya!

Head over to marina square for yoshinoya with eva and sean first as I was craving for it. Then we waited till phyllis, elizabeth and julia to arrive before walking over to the carnival.

We took this ride and it nearly killed me already. Sobs I was feeling so dizzy when I came down. Ha ha ha~~

Bb came and the rest wanted to took the 360degree ride. I was tempted but then again, luckily I didn't took the ride with them. They went up full of smiles and came down with tears. Ha ha cute la my girlsssss.

Planned to go over to riverside to drink but it was getting late so we went back to cck and headed to mandy's house. Ordered mac delivery. Played banluck and I didn't have much luck so I stopped after a few rounds..

It was an unpleasant night. Fml.

The rest of the pictures are here. And more are on fb (:

2011-01-30T21:43:00.009+08:00

My lazy bug is finally gone so I'm back here to blog. No feel to update recently. Too many things are bothering me. I have this habit of typing how I feel in my phone now.
I have like, a 100 notes till now? I try not to share my emotions with people now bcos everybody just tend to see things from the surface. No one know how it truly feels till you really go through it.

Just a summary on my weekends.

Went to town last friday with my julia. Intended to do shopping but we didn't really had the time cos' we only reached there in the evening. So we just had dinner and then walked around. He he not to forget we saw many cute guys that day *MELTZ*

Oh and we got stalked by this 2 weird guys. Yucks!! All thanks to the mad girl. I practically pulled her and hid among the crowd in ION. Horrible experience I should say.

And fml! Both of us waited for 190 for an hour? Or more than that to be exact. SMRT service was really fucking lousy. We practically watched all the packed-like-sardines 190 drove past us. Got so fucked up I couldn't stop cursing. Decided to take 106 to CJC then 985 back to panjang. Cabbed back home from there. Spent another hour on transport so I only reached home after midnight. So dulan with SMRT.

Town again the following day with mommy to get my CNY clothings. Overall I'm satisfied with what I've got. 3 tops and a pair of heels. Don't think I'll wear my heels often cuz it's like super tall? I think it'll kill me if I walk in them for hours.

Had reunion dinner with my dad's side relatives on sunday. The food didn't really suit my taste so I don't really like it. But still..

Another week of mundane school life.

And tada, it's finally friday! Went out to celebrate julia bbg's bday. Met elizabeth and we went to town. Settled my lunch at BK. Then waited for the rest to come. They were really late!!!!!!! Accompanied the girl to have dinner at Xinwang hk cafe before we went back to cck.

Bought our drinks at cheers then went over to eva's condo to chill. I think my alcohol tolerance level really sucks. I vomitted like *!(&#$^& times -.- Didn't went home and stayed out that night. Not a very pleasant night in conclusion. Sigh, can't explain how I feel at all.

Only managed to catch a few hours of sleep. Went home with mandy at 11. Can't sleep cos I was really sick ):

Not many pictures that night because I wasn't in the sober state.

And not to forget.

To julia:
Happy belated birthday babygirl! I know it's a bit late but I was the third/fourth to wish you in real life right? (: Hate to see you sad recently and there's nothing I can help. But I know you're a strong girl and you'll overcome all these. My love will get you through all this shit alright! Love you like I always do <3

Stay home sunday today. Planned to go out for steamboat with julia ng but she went to sleep instead. Poor me had to settle my dinner for chicken cutlet rice. I'm not suppose to eat that bcos it'll worsen my cough but I'm just that stubborn. Ugh.

Wonder how I'm going to sleep later. I slept for 15 hours last night. Can't believe I slept so much..

I still miss you even after so long. I still love you even when I'm not with you. It was never easy to let go of you. Never. Sometimes it's wrong to walk away, though you think it's over. I thought that from this heartache, I could escape. From the way you used to hold me to the sweet things you once told me, I just can’t find a way to let go of you. But you're just.. not here anymore.

2011-01-23T22:44:00.002+08:00

Shall blog tomorrow. I.am.so.tired.

P.S: Here comes the feeling I thought I've forgotten. I miss you 7th. I really do.

2011-01-15T23:58:00.008+08:00

Spend my night out with this two girls above ^^

Prepared myself and went over to eva's house in the late afternoon. He he I'm very happy with my make up today! Ever since school started I haven't been touching any make up at all. And today I finally don't look like dog anymore! Ha ha ha ok whatever I'm just trying to be lame~

Watched my girl do her homework and waited for julia's dad to come over. He fetch us to some industrial area in bukit batok. And then, we had this for dinner!

Yumyum.. Best steamboat I've ever had ^^ They have a great variety of food and free flow of drinks. Not to forget that their crabs and their soup base are the best! Shiok! Spend 3 full hours there to fill our stomachs. He he he their food are really tempting!

Ok.. lucky we didn't see anyone we know there bcos I abit unglam! Hao la, actually I everyday also very unglam one la.. Ha ha I think I used up their whole pack of tissue paper and my plate was the dirtiest among the 3 of us. . But who cares la? Not like my girls never see me unglam before right? ;P

H2h session with my two girls. He he he and not to forget many dirty jokes also! Wah I really think my mind polluted already lor~~ Also, my dear eva has been really retarded and she made us laugh till stomach cramp~

Camwhore after our dinner ^^

After our dinner which ended at nearly 10pm, julia's dad came to fetch us home. Ha ha love her dad, very nice :)

On our way back, we couldn't stop laughing in the car also. Dno why the fuck did I say something wrong and then both of them were so stunned.. Got to wake up my ideas and stop being so sick in the mind.. Whopsie :/

On a side note, I want to say I really love my girls a lot. Thank them for being here with me during this crucial period. Without you all there won't be me, muacks ♥

And 7th, 我还很爱很爱很爱很爱很爱很爱很爱你.

2011-01-12T21:14:00.007+08:00

(Overdued pictures from new year countdown)

Haven't been blogging for long. Guess I lost my blogging bug. Owell, or maybe I'm just too lazy..

School started on the 4th, and the second week of school gonna be over soon. But still, I haven't really got use to it. Waking up at 6, reach school at 7.30 and end school at 2? And what's worse is, I'm in sec 4 this year and I'm going to take my O's in 10months. Fuck. I can feel the sense of urgency. But I can't adapt to school life yet.

Well. Not going to elaborate on my school life. It's just the same usual routine everyday and the usual clique.. The only thing that is so different as from the past is that, I'm no longer the happy girl I used to be. And after all I believe it's bcos I have to have the boy in the past, but not now anymore..

And yes, I've gotten back my O'lvl chinese results. An A1. And know why I got it? Bcos you were my motivation back then. That morning when I read the letter you wrote, I was so motivated to do well for the papers and I really put in my 100% effort.
(http://yfrog.com/h0aswmj)

Wished you were still here with me.. You are the one who I could tell my deepest fears. 7th this month, was supposed to be our fourth month if we didn't break up. I wished I could turn back time to make everything alright. I miss you bb, I really do.. Sigh. I need you back here in my life, can it be?

2011-01-01T17:08:00.012+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR DAJIA!! ♥

Spent my new year eve out with the clique. Yay love them muackie muack ♥

Headed over to eva's house then met the guys at lot 2. Accompanied them to have dinner @ pastamania and waited for julia to reach before taking 188 to harbourfront. The bus ride was super long I fell asleep~~

Took the monorail over to sentosa. Damn there was a fucking big crowd there and the queue was so long~~ Poor us. And while we're queueing up this ang moh smiled at julia and I. He he he I'm so mesmerized by him la~~~ :) His nose is super sharp but casper insisted his was still the best LOL. Cute max.

Well did I mention Casper was my laogong and Irfan was my temporary boyfriend for last night? Ha ha ha feel so loved ♥ Ok la fake!

New year countdown @ sentosa was a blast!! Everyone was so hyper he he he. And I had h2h talks with broz by the beach. I was so upset by all the stuffs that happened recently, yet there's nothing I can about it. Sigh.. Ok enough about sad stuffs.

Then when the clock strikes 12, the entire beach was filled with screams! And I saw fireworks!!!!! My fav! He he he I love everyone!! And hope 2011 would be a smooth and happy one (':

And I got myself drunk again shucks! Fml. Couldn't really remember what I did.

Cabbed over to ECP and spend the whole night there watching the guys prawn till 7 in the morning. So fucking shag so cabbed back home with eva dearie. So tired I fell asleep on the cab. Reached home and bathe and I immediately KO on the bed. Slept til 3 in the afternooon and woke up with a bad headache. Urghs hate it ):

(Pictures are not in any order)

And school's starting really soon..
I promise I would be a good girl this year. I promise I will study really hard. And I promise I would hit 12 points for o's. He he he I pinky promise chuanguan bro already and I really must do it. I wouldn't want to go into JC but still, I want my results to be good (:

He he he some memories of 2010 alright? (:

This is me in march..

in may..

in june..

in oct..

and tada, now!!

Bye 2010, you gave me so much to remember. You gave me the first guy that I loved so much, and you took him away too. You gave me so much memories and I'll keep them in mind, forever (':

Welcome 2011, may you be a smooth and happy year (:

Dear you, I love you now, love you always, love you forever. I'll never forget all the memories you gave me to remember in 2010. You're number one, always in my heart. I just thought we were meant to be. I guess now, we'll never know. Maybe I should just let nature its course. Just remember this, I'm always yours. I'll never ever give up on you and I'll never stop loving you. Happy 2011, I love you, ♥

2010-12-28T23:32:00.002+08:00

Everything hasn't been going smoothly lately. I really got to say, 2010 hasn't been that good for me. Though I've had my happiest period of my life with the boy, I've had my bad times too.

This 5 months, from july till now. Us, from strangers to friends, from friends to lovers, from lovers to strangers, then back to lovers, and then now back to strangers. I can't belive we've been through so much. And I can't believe you can take it so easily, bcos I can't. I used to laugh at those girls who can't get over their boyfriends, but now I became one of them. Move on? I tried, I tried, I tried, and I gave up trying bcos now on the inside it feels like I'm dying. Yet I'm positively sure, if fate can tear us apart and bring us back together in the past twice, it can happen for the third time.

Ok enough of all this. Time to update on my little space.

Spend my x'mas at town this year. No pictures for the day bcos I've no time to take any. And this year x'mas was superb. Everyone at town was so hyper!!! Me and eva dearie was with the guys that night and it was pretty enjoyable with them ha ha ha. Oh and not to forget we got sprayed till si eh jialat. My whole hair was so sticky and cui and I feel damn.. soapy all over my body. And some irritating passerby had to make it worse by spraying right onto my face. JIAN!!!! Went home around 2am that night but I only managed to fall asleep at 4 am. Was talking on the phone with sweetheartie and we rant to each other ):

And on christmas day itself, went to m'sia with my parents. Didn't want to go at first. But at second thoughts maybe I really need a break from my fucked up life in s'pore. And my mood was definitely better there. But still, sigh.. :/

And I got some pix from my m'sia trip. Ha ha ha I took them during the 2 hours car ride cos I was too bored D:

And I went to eva's house yesterday, as well as today to find my girls. We've been camping at her house like it's ours. And my girls really did cheer me up. Love you girls muackie muack ♥

Hehehe this are the pix we took using photobooth. Pardon us for being unglam. But we're amazing the way we are :)

Will be going to sentosa on 31st for countdown. Can't wait!! :)

And I really do hope I'll be able to see you on the 31st. Sigh. Fml la.

2010-12-28T00:02:00.001+08:00

Will update again tomorrow. Bye.

2010-12-27T23:57:00.002+08:00

You were my everything - Aviation

This goes out to someone that was
Once the most important person in my life
I didn't realize it at the time
I can't forgive myself for the way I treated you so
I don't really expect you to either
It's just.. I don't even know
Just listen..

You're the one that I want, the one that I need
The one that I gotta have just to succeed
When I first saw you, I knew it was real
I'm sorry about the pain I made you feel

That wasn't me; let me show you the way
I looked for the sun, but it's raining today
I remember when I first looked into your eyes
It was like God was there, heaven in the skies

I wore a disguise 'cause I didn't want to get hurt
But I didn't know I made everything worse
You told me we were crazy in love
But you didn't care when push came to shove

If you loved me as much as you said you did
Then you wouldn't have hurt me like I ain't shit
Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me
I loved you with my heart, really and truly

I guess you forgot about the times that we shared
When I would run my fingers through your hair
Late nights, just holding you in my arms
I don't know how I could do you so wrong

I really wanna show you I really need to hold you
I really wanna know you like no one else could know you
You're number one, always in my heart
And now I can't believe that our love is torn apart

I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you 'cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you

I knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man
And then sit and laugh as you're holding his hand
The thought of that just shatters my heart
It breaks in my soul and it tears me apart

At times we was off I was scared to show you
Now I wanna hold you until I can't hold you
Without you, everything seems strange
Your name is forever planted in my brain

Damn it, I'm insane,
Take away the pain
Take away the hurt
Baby, we can make it work

What about when you
Looked into my eyes
Told me you loved me
As you would hugged me

I guess everything you said was a lie
I think about it, it brings tears to my eyes
Now I'm not even a thought in your mind
I can see clearly, my love is not blind

I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you 'cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you

I just wish everything could have turned out differently
I had a special feeling about you
I thought maybe you did too
You would understand, but...
No matter what, you'll always be in my heart
You'll always be my baby

Our first day, it seemed so magical
I remember all the time that I had with you
Remember when you first came to my house?
You looked like an angel wearing that blouse

We hit it off, I knew it was real
But now I can't take all the pain that I feel
Reach in your heart, I know I'm still there
I don't wanna hear that you no longer care

Remember the times? Remember when we kissed?
I didn't think you would ever do me like this
I didn't think you'd wanna see me depressed
I thought you'd be there for me, this I confess

You said you were my best friend, was that a lie?
Now I'm nothing to you, you're with another guy
I tried, I tried, I tried, and I'm trying
Now on the inside it feels like I'm dying

I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you 'cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you

And I do miss you
I just thought we were meant to be
I guess now, we'll never know
The only thing I want is for you to be happy
Whether it be with me, or without me
I just want you to be happy

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Most of the parts totally describes how I feel.
Do you feel the same too?

To the boy:
I miss you. You think I don't want to move on? I tried, I tried, I tried, and I'm trying, now on the inside it feels like I'm dying. Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me. I loved you with my heart, really and truly. You tell me, what should I do?

2010-12-21T23:32:00.010+08:00

Not at my best mood recently. My life is totally fucked up. And I'm sorry to whoever I've gave my cold shoulder to. I really don't have the mood. Get back to you all real soon alright I promise?

So... Life has been rather mundane recently, bcos I'm w/o you now. Everything just gets more and more meaningless.

(Sorry my face looks a bit cui in all the pix above)

Went out with my dearie julia yesterday. And we went town, like as usual. So both of us went to lucky plaza to have pizza hut for lunch. Has been ages since I ate that! Yummy, I love curry zazzle baked rice. And after our meals, we basically sat there for like 1 hour? Ha ha ha..

Oh and dearie received a call and then we waited for like 2 hours, walking around aimlessly. In the end, all I got was disappointment. So both of us went over to suntec to get some stuffs done.

Went back to town aftermath to have our din. We're like 2 crazy woman I swear!!! And I love her company so so much <3

Home around 11. And then a pressie was waiting for me when I got home.

And for today, went over to nex. Bought lots of stuffs today. And bro paid for my accessories, xoxo! He he he and I ate so much today! I seriously need to go on a diet. Even shihui says I'm growing fatter. Eh but I don't think so leh? Maybe just a bit chubby? Y'know? *Wink. Ok la whatever.

Dear you:

I won't tell you how sad I am anymore, even if it still matter to you. And if you really understand me well enough I'm pretty sure you'll know what state I am in now. This is the 3rd time you walked out on me. I can't explain how it feels anymore. Maybe you still care, or maybe you don't? And though I hope in your heart you're still missing me, I won't get my hopes too high anymore.

I feel like I'm a burden to you. In love we're both supposed to give each other the best we can, but I was the one who kept trying. I kept holding on no matter how painful it was for me, but you just let it go, in just one sentence. 'I'll be happier if we broke up'. Do you know how fucking hurt I was?

I know I haven't been a good girlfriend. I know I kept making you tolerate my nonsense. I know my temper and attitude is really bad. And I really did try to change, for you. What's holding you back, really? Are you tired of all the fights we had? I really don't know anymore...

And I stopped wishing on 11:11 bcos it doesn't come true. In my heart I just pray you'll come back one day, when you come to realise that all the fights we had is nothing compared to how much I love you. When you really love someone, no matter how hard it is, what shit you had to go through, you'll just keep fighting to go back to him/her. Clement Wong Wei Hao, no matter what has happened, I still love you, and I really do.

2010-12-19T00:57:00.004+08:00

It's 1.07am now and I'm not asleep yet. I totally don't feel tired at all. And I'm feeling a lil uncomfortable bcos my stomach's so bloated. Guess I'm too full from dinner just now. Need time for digestion!

Alright so I went town today with my galz. Met eva at lot one, and we accompanied sean to lot 2 to find his friend before we cab over to lucky plaza. The guys went to play pool while me and eva headed to wendy's for our lunch.

Poured out everything I had in mind to my dearest girl. And I feel so much better. Spend an hour or so finishing up my lunch and then we went over to the find the guys.
Accompanied them to have their meals at cine and send them off to the taxi stand.

Went over to meet shihui, daren, gloria and julia at heeren. Damn I miss my julia so much la really! Ha ha ha and I was super retarded the whole time with them. Oh and daren keep calling me black chicken today. So irritated la omg! Hehehe not to forget we saw this super cute boy at fourskins. Ha ha ha I couldn't take my eyes off him at all. Whops :/

Did a little shopping at cine as well, he he he..

Then 190 back to cck 302 for dinner, and then we went to eva's condo for a short while ): Omgz julia really made me laugh my ass out. 'AHHHHHHH' so fucking hilarious I burst into laughter and I couldn't stop at all!

Went home at around 11. I was so scared I ran all the way back home. Silly me. Alright so that's all for today!

I'm so glad I updated my blog (:

2010-12-14T11:37:00.008+08:00

Took a break for blogging since 2 weeks ago. And I feel like I should start updating again. So.. here I am.

I can't remember what exactly I did for the past 2 weeks, and worse still bcos my camera wasn't with me from 4dec till yesterday, so I didn't manage to take any pictures to refresh my memory, but basically, I think I spend most of my days at town with my favourite boy and co. ^^ (Oh wait, I still can track what I did from twitter. He. he. he)

Caught rapunzel on the 29th. WHehehe bb boy didn't want to watch initially but in the end we still watch it. I love that movie a lot bcos it helps me to revive my childhood memories ^^ I really love the storybook when I was young lor!!!

Attended camp on the 3-4 dec. We went trekking and had BBQ in the night. Night tour was horrible bcos I'm a scaredy cat. (SO WHAT?!) And after midnight, everyone was playing poker cards, while I'm lying comfortably on the air bed my dearie coach brought for me!!!! HE. HE. HE. So nice of her la ^^ I think I KO around 2 am? While the rest played poker cards all the way till morning! Mad la really!

And straight after the camp I went home and then came out to meet my bb boy ^^ But sadly, that day wasn't too great afterall. Bcos something happened and we had a really big fight. I'm sorry bi ):

So on the 7 dec, me and bb boy's 3rd monthsary, we caught harry potter. Overall, even tho I didn't quite understand the movie, I still think it's not that bad ^^ Okay then we had macs for dinner... yummy yummy.

And yesterday, sentosa with my girls :) And I bought this really cute raindeer hairband from daiso! Fucking cute la really!!!! Alright, so pictures speaks a thousand words!

Bb boy:
Since the very day we fought, I got a feeling something has changed. Although we may have gotten over the fight and have gone back to normal, there's something that seems to be so different. I don't know is it me or you, but I'm really trying hard to make things work, and I really hope you won't take it for granted.

And although I looked like I don't care whenever you start talking about S, I actually care a lot on the inside. I don't mind your past with her, I mean, who doesn't have their past? I just mind that you often mention her in front of me. I never told you that, bcos I don't want you to feel like I'm kicking a fuss out of a small thing. I always stay silent not bcos I want to attitude you or whatever, but bcos I'm feeling upset. 'Silence is a girl's loudest scream', I hope you'll understand this.

I hope you can sense I'm trying to change for you, and you'll really appreciate my efforts. I don't mind that you can't send me home every night like other typical boyfriends, bcos I know your place is so far away from mine. I don't mind that you're not as sweet as other boyfriends, bcos I know you're not an emotional kind of person. You have flaws like everyone else, but I can accept you for who you are still (:

CWWH I'm really thankful to have you by my side. You may not be the sweetest boyfriend, but I don't need all these. I don't need you to say mushy stuffs to me everyday, I don't need you to be the richest guy, I don't need you to have the most good looking face. All I ever needed was your biggest heart to love me with. Can I have it?

Till here then, I'll update again really soon! Maybe tomorrow or something? (:

2010-11-28T20:29:00.005+08:00

Here to update this little space. I totally have no time to update for the past few days bcos I'm out for the entire week. Totally tire me out ):

Alright, let's sum up my week.

Went to town on monday. Caught 'Nightmare on elm street' @ chambers with my dearies. Scare the hell outta me. Alright then we went to bugis. Had KFC for dinner, omgz so long since I last ate that! Shopping aftermath and got myself 2 new tops. Oh talking about clothes, I think I need to start packing my wardrobe already. I find it super hard to think of what to wear everyday. And why? Bcos I can't even find some of my clothes. I WILL pack my wardrobe soon. I promise.

Tuesday was a lousy day bcos I rotted for the whole afternoon. Went out to meet mr wong for a short while and I came home for dinner that night.

Went to work on wednesday. Well had 3 different venues to go to on that day. First we worked on the christmas tree @ marriott hotel. I think among all we've done up that was the nicest one already!!! The deco are all super cuteeeeee hehehe.

And not to forget, I tried their cookies and cream cheesecake. Thumbs up for that bcos it was simply delicious, hehehehe.

Proceeded to geylang for dinner and got the stocks from the warehouse before gng over to apollo centre. Done @ 12am, then we went over to robinsons for the last christmas tree of the day. Can you believe it? Everybody actually worked till 4am. Okay la I KO at 3 plus and I went to sleep on the vehicle bcos I really couldn't stand the exhaustion. Cab home and I fell flat on the bed at 5am.

Went to town on thursday. Lunch at pastamania, then to lucky plaza for pool. Spend time with my dearest bro daren and yappy darling I'm so happy hehehe.. Had dinner at grafitti cafe @ cine then pool again. Cab home around 11, thanks daren korkor for the free cab home ^^

Met my zui ai mr wong♥ on friday. We had katong laksa for dinner again, hehe. Went to cine to watch the guys play pool as well. Short but sweet day, lyvm mr wong♥ ^^

(And to my dearest if you're reading this):
Bi we've been quarreling so much recently. I can see you're trying to give in a lot as compared to the past and I'm thankful for that. Really sorry about last night. But I just want to let you know, I get angry bcos I care. Maybe sometimes I'm over sensitive, but that's bcos everything about you really mean a lot to me. Hope you can understand. And we must never ever give up trying alright?
XOXO ♥

Alright spend my weekends at home. I practically did nothing at all. So unproductive. Must go out tomorrow (!!!!!!!!!!!!)

2010-11-20T13:32:00.009+08:00

Hungry hungry hungry. A hungry girl is an angry girl. I need my lunch, but nobody is at home and I'm so lazy to go downstairs to buy lunch. Guess I'll have to cook noodles for myself later. Sob sob, I actually feel like eating KFC ):

So as I've previously mentioned, elizabeth came over to my house on wed. Spend the afternoon in front of my computer and then we had home-cooked dinner :) My mom cooked steamed egg and luncheon meat for us. Simple but delicious. Hehehe. Send her off to the bus stop around 9.30 and we camwhored like crazy (:

(Sorry for some of the retarded poses above. We don't pose like that, we're just imitating others. Hehehehe..)

As for thursday, had work @ Goodwood Park Hotel. Our job was to build a christmas tree 18 ft tall and complete the deco. It really did tire me out because work only ended at nearly 2 am in the morning. I was so exhausted I almost fell asleep at the lobby. However, the rest of the workers must have been more tired as they worked all the way from 2 in the afternoon to 2 in the morning. Poor people!

I was glad the boss was my uncle so I didn't have to do as much hard work. And I
still got my rest in between from 6-10. Met my dearies @ ION and we went to have dinner @ food republic. Then watch the rest played pool at lucky plaza till 10 before I went back to the hotel. Only got home at around 2.30 and after my hot bath I immediately fell flat on my bed and went into my lalaland.

Yesterday, went for trekking at bukit timah hill with bio class. Two words to describe: Fucking tired. The hill was so steep and then we had sucha hard time climbing to the summit. My legs are now hurting becos of all the climbing. Sob sob someone pls massage my leg for me ):

Went for lunch @ beauty world. Back home to prepare and came out again.

Spend my day out with mr wong♥, eva, joel and sean. I super love yesterday! Hehehe.

Going to have tuition then to grandma's house. Toodles!

2010-11-17T12:45:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling so sleeeeeepy, I guess I just didn't had enough sleep. Elizabeth my sweetheart is coming over to my house later on and we're going to hug each other to sleep. I hope someone's jealous *winkwink*

So well had a long day out again yesterday. Met mandy at 3 at the bus stop opp my block. The moment I stepped into the bus stop it started pouring heavily. Oh lucky me!! Hehehe. Bus to bpp to meet julia and then took 960 to bugis. On the bus me and mandy sat till super unglam but lucky there wasn't much people on the bus (:

Shopped around bugis with the two ladies and accompanied on their shopping spree. Hehe and I realise me and mandy have same taste and same shopping speed!!!!

Oh well then around evening we went to have steamboat, yums.. There's a great variety of dishes there and I think it's quite good. Julia the big eater ate so much, I wonder how big is her stomach!!!!!

Spend the rest of the night walking around and tada, homed @ 11. Mandy came up my house and we gossiped hehehe.. Slept at 2++ yesterday gosh my eyelids are about to close. Elizabeth pls faster I'm waiting for you to orhorh with me!

2010-11-14T11:25:00.013+08:00

I was too lazy to sit down and update my blog the past 2 days. But since I'm still waiting for my breakfast to come home, I might as well use this time to update my dearie bloggie. Hehehe..

Friday was a nice day out with elizabeth sweetheart. She's really retarded cos she does retarded stuffs, she and her crazy ideas!!! Hehe but I love her that way! Yup so I accompanied her to repair her bb. Wtf I'm so jealous becos she's going to get a brand new bb!!!!!!! This is so unfair to me ):

Then we went to 313 @ somerset to eat EverythingWithFries. It's niceeeee but I think you may get hypertension if you eat too much cos it's quite salty! But still, thumbs up for it! Yay!

Camwhored at the restaurant as well as in the toilet. Awesome us!!!!!

And aftermath we went over to wheelock place to eat Wendy's. Yumyum, elizabeth thinks it taste good too! Followed on we went to orchard ion to shop.

Went to topshop and this crazy woman fell in love with their gloss. Oh so she went whining to me that she desperately wants the gloss THAT DAY. Alright but I must admit the lip gloss is really good. It taste like peppermint and it looks nice too. Oh we went sephora too and I found ♥'s perfume hehehehe super nice omg!!!!!!!! I was over the moon I told him over the phone that night as well! And he says I'm crazy ):

Elizabeth bought her file @ daiso and I practically went mad when I saw those knickers hanging around! *Chuckles* Oh and I went around trying those christmas hats too! I can't wait for christmas!!!!!!!!!

Went home around nine that night bcos there was nothing much to do. And I was all alone at home when I reached home as my parents were out for my bro's POP ):

For yesterday, I spent my day out with ♥ and a few others :) Oh and we had katong laksa for dinner, hehe. I love his company becos he never fails to brighten up my day, xoxo.

Gosh I took 2 hours to blog. Alright, tuition in another 2 hours time argh I'm so lazy!!!!!! I think I need a short nap first, so tata.

2010-11-11T23:33:00.001+08:00

Time for another update! I've tons of pictures to upload so I guess it'll probably take me an hour or so to finish uploading ): And I just made mr wong angry this afternoon. I hope his anger is gone already!

Oh well yesterday was amp's 2nd picnic!!!! Hehehe has been a long time since the clique last went out together. So we headed over to marina barrage for the picnic. Cab over from the MRT station to marina barrage.

And tada, the moment we settled down, we cannot stop eating and camwhoring!!! Here goes the pictures!!!!!!

And after that we played catching and mushroom!!!!!! Revived our childhood memories hehehe.. Ok I was so scared I'll get caught so I ran very far away and hid myself. Hehehe I'm cunning right! And poooooooor catchers had to keep chasing everyone around!!!

Oh I got sweaty and my hair was so sticky. I'm so glad I bought essential hair essence!!! It saved me, I swear this small bottle makes wonders! Hehehe I like it soooo much I had to apply it everyday. Definitely worth the buy :)

Stayed there until 7 and we started packing up. I made someone soooo angry becos I made him waste 40dollars, many apologies if you're reading this, love you!!!!! Headed over to suntec. Dinner there with mr wong♥ and co.

Cab home after everything and and home sweet home at 11.30. Fell flat on my bed the moment I finish my bath cos I was too tired, hehehe.

Going out with elizabeth ong sweetheartie tmr to get her phone repaired!!! Hehehe love her muaaaaacks :)

Update again tmr hopefully, provided I'm not lazy!!! Hehehe bye.

2010-11-08T19:52:00.004+08:00

(Overdued pictures taken @ town last sunday)

Has been a week since I last updated my blog. Oh well....

The past week has been a rather smooth one for me. I'm glad everything is alright already. As the saying goes, 'A rainbow always come after the rain.' After so many stormy days I've finally seen my rainbow ^^ I'm a happy girl now, I feel so blessed hehehe..

Alright the past week was filled with chinese intensive and it just went on and on.. So fucking sick of afternoon lessons. I can't imagine how's life gng to be next year lor, the thought of it makes me sick!!!! ): I need some encouragement!

Yup so friday was deepavali. Went to town with shihui and met julia there as well. Me and shihui had our lunch @ BK. We wanted to catch 'I gave my first love to you' but the tix were all sold out! We're damn sad and shihui can't stop whining and there she goes, 'Wlao curse the person who stole our tickets'

So both of us were so bored as there's no movie for us so we went to scape. Had coffee @ mac. Wtf one word for it: HORRIBLE. It was mad bitter my face totally crunched up when I took a sip. Maybe it don't taste that bad la, but I just don't like it.

Spend the rest of my night @ town with many people and then finally home @ 11. Unhappy stuffs happened that day and my mood kept fluctuating. I'm glad everything is fine at the end of the day :)

And yesterday was another long day. Met julia, went down to eunos to find mr wong♥ and then to town. Dinner was super filling! Wtf I witnessed a car accident right in front of my eyes. It totally scare the shit outta me I swear. I was too timid to look at the casualties, but I heard the girl was unconscious. God pls watch over her, hope she'll be alright! Reached home @ 11 again.

Update again soon, toodles.

2010-11-01T20:44:00.004+08:00

I've been spending money like water recently. Omigosh I think I should start saving
up! ):

Spent my friday out to town with this girl up there. I took 190 alone, lonelygal95 yes I know, because this girl came to meet me from bishan. What's worse was that she was late and I had to shop around @ ION on my own till she arrives. Seriously I think shopping alone sucks!!! And when this girl finally reached both of us went to have our late lunch @ pontian cafe.

Had a great day out and I reached home at 10.30 that night cos there's school the next day. FML I wished I didn't take HMT.

Saturday, had lesson till afternoon. Came home for tuition and then mr mooo came over at night to fetch me for movie hehehe. Was in a rush cos he only fetch me @ around 9 when the movie starts @ 9.20!! Oh but he drove fast enough anyway. Caught The Child's Eye. Wtf it's fucking scary I covered my face with my cardigan 1/2 of the time and I can't stop whining I'm sucha scaredy cat ): I was so scared after the movie, so when moo was driving me home I told him this: 'Eh wo bu guan! Ni yi ding yao pei wo shang qu. Wo bu yao zi ji zuo dian ti wo hen pa!!!!' Hahaha even tho he's tired he still fetched me up. Thanks uncle moo!!! :) Home around midnight and my mommy waited up for me :)

Yesterday, spent my afternoon out with gloria, shihui and julia. I think we can get really crazy tgt. My laughter likea crazy only I was really super unglam! Hahahaha I think I'll never do that in front of any other people lor seriously!!! Home @ around 10 and I finally had my dinner @ home after like so many days! Miss home cooked food!!!!!

Really want you back, wished you were here beside me. I miss you, a lot.

2010-10-26T21:40:00.005+08:00

Flu sux, )': My nose is blocked. Flu can you please go away? I don't like you!

Accompanied mommy to bugis today. Shoooooooping totally brighten up my day :) I'm sucha nice daughter cos I still went out with her despite the hot weather. My make up almost melted, hahahahaha.

I don't like shopping with my mommy cos she keeps rushing me )': But nevertheless, thanks mommy for paying for the things I bought! Ai ni oh muaaaaacks! Hehehe I ♥ the top that I bought!!! And I saw many tops like so cute only!!!!!! I feel like gng back there soon and buy everything that catches my eye. But I need to work if not I'll not have the money to do so! And the thought of working makes me wna faint. How I wish money would drop from the sky $.$

Oooooh ya I kept thinking today. I want to faster grow up and get married and then have 2 sons and 1 daughter. I'll be a good mommy and read them bedtime stories everynight and give them goodnight kisses on their forehead! Ok this is my dream :) Hehehehe...

I'm really v v v v tired today. Update again soon!

2010-10-24T10:29:00.012+08:00

Back from chalet. One word to describe myself now: Exhausted. I am seriously tired to the extent that I can sleep the whole day away if nobody disturbs me. I just woke up cos I'm so hungry, but since there's no one at home to prepare breakfast for me, I'll go back to sleep after I finish updating.

Packed my stuff and left home around 6. Dropped by lot one to meet yappy darling for a short while before gng up to eva's house. Waited for her to get prepared. She's a slowpokey cos she's very indecisive of what to wear. At last she's done and both of us went down to bus interchange to meet sylvestor. Lot one> Town> Pasir Ris.

Waited for julia and mandy to come after their work. Walked over to coastal sands and bought carlsberg, wtf it sucks!!!! Found the guys @ Ehub, and they were all busy playing bowling. Had our late dinner there yumyum.. Oooooh and I was fucking suey my phone officially died there. It broke into half and I was totally stunned. I bet the culprit was shocked too, right casper? Ok la, not ttly his fault, it was gng to spoil anyway.

Casper carried me back to the chalet, but I don't remember at all! Omgz that's so stupid. Jumped onto the bed immediately we entered our room.

I can't remember what I did, but I know me and this girl up there went crazy. The others said we kept pestering marcus to ---- and I won't stop laughing hysterically. I think someone recorded the process down, like wtf lol!!!! Seriously, that was my most unglam moment in my life ever. Worst of all, this girl saw me zaogeng! Cui ttm.

Went down for puffs and I crawled back to the room and KO on the bed. Woke up at 340am by a phone call. I was so blur I don't know what I said at all. Couldn't sleep after that, so went down again to look for rest and talked till ard 5am before we headed back to the room to catch some sleep. Everyone died @ 6am.

Woke up @ 8 and bathed. Waited for julia and mandy to bathe before we went for breakfast. Oyster mee sua @ Ehub is good!!!!! Or maybe I was just too hungry hehehe. Went back to the chalet and then I slept again till 2.

Left for home with eva in the late afternoon and finally home sweet home :) I spent lots of money recently. I need to control!!!!!!

Hilda was so nice to pass me her LG viewty. Thanks alot love!!!! Muaaaaaacks.

2010-10-22T16:09:00.003+08:00

Gng irfan's chalet tonight. I'll update when I get back home. So bye for now! :)

2010-10-19T21:25:00.003+08:00

Hi back for another update. I'm too bored I can't find anything to do so I'm here :) So yeah, shihui came over to my house on sunday cos I really cannot stand it I'm too bored @ home but @ the same time I'm too lazy to go out. She bought her lunch and also bubble tea for me I love her sooooooo much. Girlfriend ai ni o ^^ Had a talk on the phone with gloria and she really made me laugh likea bitch. Hahaha that girl ah, can be so silly sometimes but I like it that way hehehe..

Intended to skip school yesterday but I went so as to get back my results. Hehe but I went late. I woke up at eight thirty when my mommy saw me still in bed and so she woke me up. I broke out in cold sweat I think I had a bad nightmare.. ): Went to school at nine I'm awesome hehehe.. And I'm soooo glad I did better than I expected for chinese :)

And today was fucking boring I swear. So tired in the morning, thank god luv's mommy drove us to school :) Wasted our few hours in sch then went to settle some stuffs at 513 with miss XXX.

Miss XXX:
Hi there. We used to be so close, remember? But you had to betray us and destroy the trust we had in you. When I confronted you today you actually told me to look you in the eyes when I was playing w/ my nails. Oh what do you mean by that? You think I'm guilty or whatever shit that's why I didn't look into your eyes? C'mon la, look, who should be the guilty one? Please do some reflections.. By saying 'I forget' doesn't mean you can push all the blame away. Don't you feel guilty at all for doing all this things to us? And you deny calling me a S toy? WOW SO YOU MEAN I THOUGHT OF THAT MYSELF LA? I ACTUALLY CALLED MYSELF A S TOY? Jokeeeeee? Wow, srsly, do think about this ok, try and RECALL. Thanks leh, for giving us all this shit. And THANKS, for trying to break us up. I'll remember this for life :) Good luck in finding yr new best friend, a best friend who can tolerate you being sensitive and paranoid!

It's scary how someone so close to you can turn out to be such a monster. Ok enough about it. Just make sure our paths never cross again..

Lunch @ KFC with mandy elizabeth and eva. I was busy repeating my story to mandy, and poor eva had to listen to the story so many times! Hahaha. Casper came halfway, and I had to repeat my story again!!!!! Omgz so crazy. Oooooh ya I helped casper squeezed his pimple on his nose. I'm a professor ok!!!! But I failed this time round cos he's was an acne and it's difficult to squeeze. Sho sad lor I failed ): Sent casper to lot2 then home with elizabeth and mandy :)

Some unhappy stuff happened just now again. FML la srsly. I'm so tired of all this. My 11:11 wish tonight would be for me to not cry even for just a day. Okay so tired from all the typing, I shall find something else to do now, toodles!

And I'll be removing my tagboard. I find it so xtra down there.

You:
No matter how I try and try I just can't say goodbye. Even though I pretend that I've moved on, I can't find ways to let you go.

2010-10-17T15:21:00.004+08:00

♥, you're not the best guy on the world, you're not the best boyfriend-material, you don't love me as much as I love you and you don't treat me as well as I expected. But so what? Isn't love all about give and take?
I know I love you, and that feeling just won't go away. It's not that I can't forget, it's just that I don't want to.. because my heart knows the truth and the truth is you're everything to me. Although it hurts like shit now, but I guess I'll hang on. If missing you becomes a habit, what can I do to kick away this habit? )':
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I'm bored at home now. I wna go out but I'm lazy to even move my body now. I guess after this post I'll just jump onto my bed and take a nap.

Have been out for the past 2 days.

Friday with elizabeth and julia, to bugis. Took bus there with elizabeth first. On the bus ride I was so tired I rested my head on the guy sitting next to me. After a min or so I chua tio then I wake up. So awkward I don't even dare to look at him... Hahahaha paiseh.

Not really in the mood to shop that day cuz I didn't bring much money out. Julia was late for an hour and then elizabeth left not long after for church stuffs. So me and julia continue shopping. OMG know something?! She got scammed and I couldn't stop laughing at her!!

Boycott that shop @ 2nd floor. It sells things like nail polish, double eyelids, fake eyelashes and stuffs like that. I swear I was laughing like an idiot that day, silly julia!!!!

Chanced upon yappy darling and had a talk with her for a short while cuz she's with her friend. Quite upset after hearing what she said )': Left bugis around 8plus and bus back. Some unhappy stuffs happened and I was really feeling fucking low. That day was my worst day ever in my whole 15 years of life.

And for yesterday went over to lot one with shihui. Met gloria and went up for lunch @ food junction. Eva and phyllis came aftermath but phyllis left for bugis. Shihui and gloria left for job interview @ clarkquey too. So me and eva went over to her condo and spent our afternoon there. Met theron chong at night and home aftermath :)

Ok till here then, bye.

2010-10-09T20:37:00.005+08:00

Sigh... what's going on now? I'm really sad that you're ignoring me. Didn't I tell you before? I'm afraid that history will repeats, and you would ignore me again like how you did in the past? Remember what you promised? You say you wouldn't and told me not to think too much. But how can I not think now when you're not replying me. I know I shouldn't have said all those words to you last night, I really regretted. I wished I could take back my words too ): But can you at least let me know what's on your mind now? Rather than leaving me thinking of all the possibilites that might happen? I'm scared, I really am.. But who can I tell that to? No one really understands how I feel know because they don't know how much I love you. I really don't dare to think of how life's going to be w/o you.. Stop making me worry alright? Talk to me, just talk to me ):

2010-10-08T18:43:00.005+08:00

I'm drowned in exhaustion today. I got so dizzy today when I was doing my english p1. I should really have enough sleep from sunday onwards. No more late night text messages.. self control till EOY's over. I want to plan many stuffs after EOYs and fill up the blank spaces in the month of OCT in my organiser. I'm so desperate to go shopping!!!! Wlao I have all the things I wna buy in my mind now! Tsk~~~~

Kkkk english p1 and p2 both were alright. I think it's passable? But I'm aiming for an B3 leh. I need english to help pull up my marks! Monday's chemistry and social studies. I think I'm gna put in more effort it social studies and memorise all the shit on the 2 essays I'm planning to do.

Oh ya..... when I was looking thru my picture folders just now.. I suddenly miss the vietnam with my girls lor ): I want to spend my time eating and sleeping the whole day rather than mugging my head off la.. ):

Sigh okay off to do my work, bye!!!

2010-10-06T20:50:00.003+08:00

Today's so not my day. Hell no. Aiya whatever, I should just put this aside and cool myself down first. Okay bye.

2010-10-02T22:17:00.003+08:00

5 more days ^^
I'm anticipating hehehe...

Oh well I had a super good sleep last night. And I woke up feeling so refreshed ^^
Had a talk on the phone with tong and ♥ then and lunch before my tuition starts. Omgz very boring right! Tuition sux a lot ):

Straight after tuition rushed out to meet tong. Dinner @ MOF and then eva came. Something unpleasant happen and then I had to try to please both of them. I hope it's okay now already. Got my liquid foundation @ sasa. Reached home @ about nine and I'm feeling very uncomfortable now.

Fuck my throat really pain until...................... ): I am going to the doctor's again tomorrow. I really hope the pain goes off.. Damn it I can't even swallow salivar now because everytime I swallow I can feel the tightness in my chess and pain in my throat. Fuck la nb I hate this sucky feeling!!!!!!!!!!

Time for my fav show, bye!

2010-10-01T20:36:00.004+08:00

Started off with our first paper today, chinese. Wtf okay!!!!!!! Paper 2 was fucking hard *(@*&&#^&$^%^@%$!%#@. I was looking around the examination hall and I can see all the -omgwtf- faces. I think the setter of the paper outta her mind for her to set sucha paper that killed almost everyone. Fuck you CX!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mac with zitong and eva for lunch :) Now I chew my food into very small pieces then I swallow lor.
Ohhhhh ya that day I choked on my lunch and the chicken got stucked at my throat and it pierced onto it or smth like that!!!!! So I went to vomit and guess what?! I spat out blooooood, so I got extremely scared and I almost cried ): After that I thought I was okay already so I went out to the living room and tada.... I spat out another mouthful of blood. Fucking grosssssss it was all over the floor!!!!!!! Went to the doctor's and he gave me 2 types of medicine. It's better already but I still feel like there's something stucked in my throat. If one week don't recover I needa go hospital already I scared leh ):

Dinner tomorrow with CZT ♥ muaaaaaaaaacks!

Okok I think it's time for me to study. EOY's coming in a few more days!!!! Work hard now and play hard after EOY :) Byeeeeeee.

2010-09-28T18:30:00.004+08:00

Happy 15th birthday to my favourite girl up there! Mummy loves you so much, muaaaaaaaaacks, ♥ I'm sure you love the surprise during recess today!

Eva:
Thanks for being sucha great listener, thanks for giving me advices when I'm lost, thanks for making me laugh with your cuteness, thanks for being sucha great daughter, thanks for everything. Love you (:

And and and..
I love biimbos, every single one of them. Because they never fails to make me laugh even at times when I'm sad over -. I swear they're my best girls ever!!!!!!!!!

我不够成熟但我想我可以明白你所有的痛

2010-09-26T17:30:00.007+08:00

I just browse through my pix folder and saw this picture. Decided to post it up cuz I think we look soooooo sweet tgt! Hehehez I mizz this girl up there too. Love texting with her about all those random stuffs!

Okay EOY's like two weeks away and I have yet to really start revising.
Sigh I really hate exams a lot.
And at the same time I've got to exercise self discipine in myself already. No more procrastinating! Just mug hard for this two weeks. Though it's gna be sucky but I really really have to bear with it still, sigh..

Yesyes, today is monday and I'm currently having monday blues which really sux to the core ): I am sooooo fucked up in class today!!! I feel like I want to cry but I can't tear.
What's wrong with me? Hmmmmmmmm? :/

XXX, Somehow I can feel your disappointment today though I'm not sure what is it because of. Maybe you were just joking around when you said that sentence, but it really bothered me. I hope you didn't mean it if not I'll feel so guilty!

2010-09-24T22:20:00.005+08:00

Home-Based Learning today :)
Soooooooooo, we don't have to go to school. Awesome!!!!!!
Slept at around 2 last night and woke up then went to sleep again.
Shiok max!!!!!!!!!!!!

Brunch with daddy @ 1.
And we cab to pasir laba camp @ Jurong at around 3.
We were early and waited for mommy and cuzzie + her mom for like say 1/2 hour?
Daddy and I were laughing @ some people who has BAD dressing sense.
Omgz likea evil, but don't you find it amazing that father@daughter can gossip tgt?
Well I think mostly only ladies will do that tgt.
But me and daddy are exceptional :)

Settled down and it started pouring heavily.
What's worse is that we're sitting near the outside,
so the rain kept splattering on us.
And I got really bored while waiting, but thank goodness I have broz Itouch with me :)

After the rain stopped the parade finally started.
I'm soooo proud of my broz he perservere through this few tough months ^^
Love you kor :)

Kkkkkk dinner @ the leader's hall.
And cab home aftermath :)
Just got home not long ago.

Gotta go do my mask now, bye.

2010-09-19T16:30:00.007+08:00

(I'm sorry I had to keep digging out old photos cuz haven't been taking pictures for long!)

I like this picture though the quality's not good enough.
So sweeeeeeeet right :)

I want to go swimming so badly!!!
But the monthly routine had to come at the wrong timing )':
Booooo I'm sad x10000000000
I wna go swim, and play with water!!!!!!
Okay seems a bit childish but it's absolute fun!

Yepyep, went for the grps carnvial yesterday afternoon.
Hahahahaha and met ♥ for a short while as well :)
Omgz mizzzz him so much!!!!!!!!!
Hehehehez.

Kkkkkk going over to gran's house lateron :)
I think I needa bathe like now,
if not my dad's gna nag @ meeeeeeee again.
And not forgetting to mention my dad's singing sux!!!!
He's singing so loud outside in the living room I'm laughing away right here!
HA HA HA sorry dad!!!

2010-09-16T18:20:00.003+08:00

Just 2 group pix of 3Beeeeee steamboat night :)

Tuition tonight!!!!!! Gosh I'm so sleepy now already.
And my concentration span is like decreasing!
Imagine sleeping only a few short hours a day?
How can one possibly concentrate well? Blaaaaaaaa.

Okay I think I can have a short rest before tuition starts in an hour!

Thank goodness I have you in my life, I'll never push you away from me because I love you so much :)

2010-09-15T20:22:00.002+08:00

First three days of school really sux )':
I can't seem to get use to waking up sooooo early after the holidays.
And before afternoon I'm always like half dead already, really bth!

Sigh and I was being really paranoid for the past two days.
And it really got me so fucked up with everything.
But I'm glad I'm alright today already :) Hehehez!
Love you so much :)

Okay off to touch my books!
I've tons of homeworks left undone!!!!!!!!! )':

2010-09-12T13:29:00.007+08:00

Girlfriend's phone camera is so addictive we can't get our hands off it!!!
Camwhore!!!!!!!!!!

Mid autumn @ limbang park yesterday was boring )':
Too much walking makes my leg so tired.
And I ain't in my best mood yesterday so everything just sux.
But I'm glad I've my girls with me, ♥

We cabbed to lot one when it's just a short walking distance.
Hahaha we're crazy like that (':

Slept super early last night.
Like 12? Earliest time I slept among all the days during the hols.
I need to adjust my body clock back and force myself to sleep @ 11 tonight.
If not I bet I'll be dozing off in class tomorrow.
Hehehz okay till here then, meeting girlfriend for lunch later (':
Toodles!

2010-09-10T11:58:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was awesome!!!!!! x10000
Great afternoon spent ♥

And 3'Bee steamboat at night was filling (:
I like hazel's house, damn high classy look! Hehez.
I want my future home to be like hers too.

Had lotsa fun while we're playing those childhood games.
Awwwwww, I miss my childhood )':
Okay but we really did enjoy ourselves.
Blindmice and the blanket game was good!

Phyllis's dad came to fetch us home around 11.
And I was really scared while I walk to my lift.
Ouh did I mention I got stalked by somebody?

I was walking thru the carpark back home in the afternoon.
And I felt someone following behind me, so I turned back.
And that man behind me quickly looked away.
I'm a scaredy cat, so I walk super fast, and he followed!!!! ):
So when I was about to reach my lift I RAN SUPER FAST AND SHUT HIM OUTSIDE.
I thought I escaped but NO!
When I reached my unit, my tuition teacher was there.
I was still scared, so I looked behind, and I saw the stalker! EWWWWWWWW.
So he followed me all the way home? Fuck -'-
Lucky my tuition teacher was there, phew.
Omgz that stalker really scared the shit outta me )':

Okayokay, that's super draggy.
Gna bathe now and prepare for the BBQ later on @ ECP :)

2010-09-07T22:42:00.002+08:00

Short update today.
Awesome day out to town, hehehez.
Caught 'The hole 3D' :)
Okay I don't really get the storyline..
Not because the movie's not good, but cause I wasn't paying attention to it.
Hahahaha whopsie!

2010-09-04T20:29:00.002+08:00

Left home in the early morning today.
In the lift @ the 7th storey two policemen came in.
They looked at me like I'm some homeless kid.
I almost laughed but I controlled if not it'll be so embarassing!!

Waited for tongtong @ lotone.
Then chanced upon casper and marcus, then tongtong came with chuanguan.
Bought mac breakfast and then talked to the guys a lil while outside cheers.
OMG casper create the first joke of the day with his wonderful cheena essence, thumbs up! (Y)
I think me and tongtong can do it almost as well as he could (':

Took HSK @ RI.
J8 aftermath, (':
With eva, weiling, zitong, julia, wuiminn (HAHA YES MY BIIII!)
Lunched @ yoshinoya.
And I was randomly telling zitong 'I feel like biting your ear!'
And she shunned me like I'm some crazy monster )':

Bought KOI before we train back to cck.
Tuition @ 430 and I was like super drained now ):
And I saw something on fb which fucking spoiled my mood.

You're the one among all my pasts that hurt me the most.
I want to forget and move on like how you've moved on.
I'm trying, really hard.

2010-09-02T17:02:00.005+08:00

An update before I go nap, tuition tonight.
Gosh my life really sucks )':
But somehow, keeping myself busy is the only way to refrain myself from thinking too much.
Many things are bothering me I could hardly cope, SIGH.

Okay let's start of with yesterday.
Nua at home for the afternoon, then headed to lot around 4.
Met elizabeth, eva, zitong and chuanguan (':

OMG tongtong really made me laugh like *@*$^&^@%#^%!#&*
Laugh till fly into bengawan solo (w/e)! *INSIDE JOKE.
She really did entertain me with CCCCCCCEEEEEE. Hehehez.
Tongtong, next time I'll cling CCCCEEEEE's arm and walk past MMMMMMMMMMMM.
One heaven one earth, laughs!!!!!!!!!!!!
Okay I don't think anyone's gna understand this part, hehehehez.

Yayz then slacked @ mos while I had my milk tea and kaya toast (':
Chuanguan broz was a great entertainer too (:
Haven't been laughing so heartily for soooooooo long already!
Hehehez and I met my future sister in law AKA chuanguan's wife.
She's likea SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO super chio only I'm jealous!! HEHEZ.
They wore couple tee somemore, sooooooo sweet *WINKWINK
I'm gna upload their anniversary picture soooooon, do look forward!

Left around 630 for dinnnerrrrrrrr.
Omg steamboat again, but from a different place (':
This one was more awesome than the previous one!!!!! (Y)
Hehehez.

Yeps and after school today steamboat again with zitong, eva, mandy, elizabeth (':
Yummyyyyyyyyyy and filling lunch (:
Me like ^^

Okay gna take a nap naoz, byeeeeeee (':

You:
I'm struggling, you know? It hurts, a whole lot.
I really really didn't know you could hurt me so much.
But talking about that I've never regret knowing you.
You've gave me so much to remember.
But it's really really unfair to me.
These 25 days, youu're leading your life happily,
and you totally don't know what I've been through.
I feel like I'm going crazy at times whenever I think of you.
I didn't know how girls can get so heartbroken cuz of a guy until I went through this.
I really really need to talk to you, so much.
But what can I talk about?
Or rather, what can we talking about? :/

2010-09-01T12:23:00.002+08:00

Just finished my lunch cum breakfast.
Okay I'm proud to say my cooking is awesome! HAHA FAKE.
My mommy cooked the fish for me before she left home.
BUT I still did cook the soup myself, though it's instant!
Hehehehehz yum yum yum..
And I'm so glad I can nua at home today.
Feel like sleeping my day away but think I'm studying with biimbos later.

Anyway, happy t'chers day!
If it's not for all teachers today won't be a holiday!

Yesterday celebration was alright.
Got a little restless after soooo long.
Saw a -ohsocute- guy standing outside the hall and that perks me! Laughs!

Headed over to lot one to have breakfast aftermath.
Wanton noodles + 4 slices of bread still cannot fill my stomach!
Gosh that's sooooooooo fattening right? ):
Fat fat fat fat fat, I'm gna go on hunger strike someday!

Slack @ mof then off to BPP.
Hehehez on the way to take lrt I saw J's ruirui.
As I walk past him I found him sooo familiar.
So I kept staring at him and he stare back too.
So like after 5s after elizabeth sweetheartie say that's ruirui then I 'OUHHHHHHHH'.
Hahahaha omg silly.

Daiso and then went to print pix with sweetheartie (:
We printed 4R thinking it was about wallet size.
In the end BOOM, it's even larger than our wallets!
Both of us laugh till peng!

Kkkkk went home to bathe and then went over to lot, again.
Steamboat for dinner, best or what!
Saw the -ohsocute- guy again and I texted tongtong and eva (;
Omg he's seriously cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *WINK

Guess I'm going over to lot later in the late afternoon again.
No lifeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ):
I wna go SHOPPING!
Okay I'm off to touch my books.
Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, muacks muacks.

You:
I really don't know what to say anymore.
Neither do I know what I really want from you.
I hope you'll text me, but at the same time I hope you don't.
I'm expecting an answer from you, but at the same time I don't want to know your answer.
I'm afraid I'll get disappointed and heartbroken all over again.
I know exactly how I am, I'm just too stubborn.
You know how much I miss you?
And when I say I miss you, nobody else in this world misses you more than me.
But afterall I've never really crossed your mind, right?
All you think of is her her and her.
Sigh :/

2010-08-29T20:00:00.002+08:00

You've finally said it.
You still can't get over her, okay I totally get it.
If you really love her so much then go back to her,
if your heart's not here anymore what's the point of me holding on?
I'll end up hurting myself no matter what way I choose.
Sigh, I'm giving myself a week, you too.
Your decision matters a lot, really.

2010-08-26T17:36:00.009+08:00

Reached home not long ago and I'm here to update.
Omgz I cut my fringe!! Like 2cm? )':
Though it's still kinda long naoz but I still feel my heart aching!
I wonder how long must I wait till it grows back!

Bought couple rings with my tongtong'airen @ lot yesterday!
We're getting married tonight. Yay love her like no tomorrow!
Tongtong, we must mug hard tgt from now onwards!
I don't wna retain, it's really gna sux much ):

Anyway I think my results are disatisfactory (w/e).
From next week onwards I'm gna start mugging w/ Biimbos (:
Omgz we rocks! We're soooooo into studies *HAHAHA AS IF.*

Hehehehez tongtong came my house @ 7 just now.
And both of us studied.
Productive cuz I completed part of my maths homework.
But both of us talked a lot too, ;P
Sent her to the lrt station and walked home alone.
Omgz scared the hell outta me, the road's like super dark ):
Suddenly I feel so blessed to be home, hehehez.

To you:
I really really really miss you alot.
Maybe I might really mean nothing to you now.
But remember this, you still mean a lot, a whole lot to me.
It's not like as if I'm some STM people who can forget things easily.
I told myself again and again to let go but I just couldn't.
I want you back, I really really want you back.
This 19 days have been so hard w/o you.
It feels like a part of me is missing.
I feel so tired, but I just can't forget.
Many possibility run through my mind, like you might have someone else already?
I stared at the picture on your fb with another girl for sooooo long till I can't count, and it only makes me feel even more terrible :/
I'm this tired and sad but I can't cry.
I've cried too much till I've no more tears.
Can everything go back to how it used to be?
Please, you and me? )':

2010-08-22T20:04:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday tongtong airen!! ♥
Thanks for always being there for me when I'm sad,
thanks for always gossiping with me about our neigbours,
thanks for always giving me advices,
thanks for always cheering me up,
thanks for always loving me like there's no tomorrow,
thanks for always being by my side,
thanks for helping me get revenge on that jerk.
Thanks for being my airen ♥♥

Remember I told you I used to hate you at the start of the year?
People gossiping about you and I rlly took their words for real.
Only till I rlly get close to you then I knew how nice you were.
It's that biatch's misfortune for losing a friend like you.
I'm so glad you're in my life. Smuacks smuacks to you!!
Hearts you a million! ♥

Day out with tongtong, mandy and theron chong yesterday was awesome! (:
Pix some other day? (:

2010-08-20T21:04:00.004+08:00

I miss the way things used to be.
But now it would never be the same anymore, right?
Things change and people's heart change too.
But you know what?
Time will make you forget me, but time will make me love you even more.

CT2 is like finally over, phew..
No more mugging, just have fun, have fun and have fun! *wink
Biimbos are great company, love them to max ♥♥
I'm glad I've them around cuz they never fails to make me laugh (:
This week haven't been a smooth one for me, not in my best mood though.
Sighs.. :/

Well after our last paper on tuesday, rushed home and came out again.
Headed over to JP with my lovely girls.
Caught AFTERSHOCK. Awesome!!
Super touching and I cried uncountable times.
Especially the part when the mommy had to choose between her two kids.
The girl damn poor thing, sigh.

Eva and phyllis left after the movie,
while the 4 of us continued shopping @ JP.
Julia sent me home aftermath and reached home about 9plus (:

And my girls came over to my house on wednesday.
Elizabeth, Zitong, Mandy and Julia (:
Hehehehez elizabeth's mommy made cinnamon rolls for us.
She has a flair for baking (:
Did me and elizabeth's all time favourite hobby on the comp *WINKWINK
Camwhore too, omg I just love my girls (:

Kkkkz sum up today and I'm done.
Had the HSK briefing after school and then headed over to lot.
Omg we saw many handsomes!! Me and tong super got chemistry one,
she said 'Eh lot one upgrade liao!'
Then I helped her continue her sentence 'Cuz alot shuaige right!! Hahahaha'
Airen ma, cannot help.
Gna get our rings soon and get married already hor tongtong? *winkwink

Went over to tongtong's house.
Hehehez her nainai very cute lorzzzzzzz.
Ouh yeps she caught me red-handed eating mushrooms!! Hahaha *inside joke.
Met elizabeth then went over lot again.
Waited for mommy and had dinner with her.
Yay I completed my essential haircare pink series already!! IMMA HAPPY GIRL.

Ending off with elizabeth's quote:
"Has your growth stunt, stunts your thinking too?" -Elizabeth

FABEJE(S) SUX MUCH.
KICK YOUR ARSE. KARMA WILL FALL ON YOU IN NO TIME. LUCKS *WINKWINK

2010-08-15T14:40:00.003+08:00

(Credits to tumblr)
I like this, alot ^^

School has been a bore, tests coming after another.
Did I mention we're having CT2? ):
Bad bad bad bad bad bad bad.

Down with flu on the second day of CT2.
And amaths paper + english paper falls on that day.
Totally fuxk shiatz.
I took panadol before I left home and guess what?!
Likea drowsy only during my english paper and I almost dozed off.
My eyes could hardly open and I feel like a zombie much.
But the good thing is I did complete the paper.
Cross fingers and wish I won't flunk it.

Bio paper and emaths paper tomorrow ):
Haven't memorise notes on bio yetttttttttttttttt.
Need to start studying soon.
Mug my head off.

Nobody's at home naoz and I'm scaredddddddd ):
Dad's out and broz and mommy went over to BPP to collect broz Iphone4 (JEALOUS MUCH!)
Mommy better buy me some food back or I'll be angry at her :@

Kkkkkkk byez.

2010-08-08T22:48:00.007+08:00

Okay, I wasted another day not doing any work.
That's really bad because common test is in 2 days time!
I promise, I'm gna mug hard tomorrow and be a guaibaobaoz (:

Let's sum up how I spend my day today alright? (:
Hmmmmm, I could say today was a pretty awesome day.

Woke up and replied texts and had brunch.
Decided to meet elizabeth to pass her file @ lot one.

Met elizabeth and phyllis then lazed around @ subway.
There was once when I asked phyllis,
'Eh you know what's woohoo in the sims 3?'
Then she gave me a 'HUH' face and then told me what was that.
And I just burst out laughing.
Phyllis, do you wna woohoo with me? *winkwink

Left not long after eva came when my dearest nick chew mr mc big came to find me.
Lot>AMK HUB.

Bought some facial products @ guardian.
Met cuzzie and initally wanted to catch a movie but we missed it :/
Headed over to Ichiban Sushi to have late lunch instead. Mmmmm.
Ordered set meals and all I could say is..
The meal was seriously delicious and filling! Me like ^^

Food time!

The chicken w/ cheese was really awesome! Definitely worth the try!
I don't really like salmon but I really want to say they serve nice salmon.
Fresh or anything you used to describe it (:
Camwhored after our meals.

Know what? We took neoprints too!
It's like ages since we last took.
I think my last one was 2 years ago? Aw, memories (:
The first pix was horrible cuz we weren't even aware it started already.
Hahaha so our face were like damn epic!!

Walked around AMK in rounds.
Spend the next few hours there and I didn't buy anything.
Well I think there's nothing much to buy from there anyway.
Weekeon join us aftermath and we left at around 8plus?
Had a great laugh on the MRT @ some 'step-yi-ge-SJ' like what weekeon said.
Okay I was being very uncivilised because I went 'KEKEKEKEKE..'
Omg laugh like some crazy woman!!

Okay I don't know why but I don't feel tired today.
A good thing or a bad thing? Hmm..

Okay now the rest are just pix (:

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2010-08-06T22:29:00.004+08:00

Happy belated birthday to phyllis chow my lover!! Smuacks! ♥
Gave you the card that I made already.
Sorry I know it's ugly but it's the thought that counts right?
Hahaha I specially made the card for you in the middle of the night leh.
Ji touched yi xia anot? (:

Well, let's start of with some pix.
Not in order of any date cuz I just randomly picked to upload.

National day celebration this morning.
Okay like a boring only~
School>Limbang Macs>Home.

Prepared and then came out to meet Zitong around two plus @ CCK.
Sorry airen for being late and made you wait!! ):
Headed over to chill @ Eva's condo.

Took this picture outta boredom:

Ignore the mosaic part and focus on my eyes.
My eyebags are like *($&*&^*^@%!!&*&%%(*@*&$.
Wtfffffff right!!

Caught inception with my lovely bitches (:
I could say it's quite nice? Except that we have to keep thinking :/
Cuz it's difficult to differentiate between a dream or reality at some point of time.
I think maybe next time I shall learn how to steal dreams too? ^^
Quite an interesting thing to do yeps. And my first target would be 'ahem' *Wink

Headed over to Keathong Market to have dinner.
Hahaha finally got to eat zichar with bimbos ^^
It's a pity Julia sister couldn't make it.

Back to lot one> Eva's condo> Home.

Gna wash up and sleep soon.
Didn't catch my sleep these two days.
Bushedddddddddddddddddd.
Okay till here than baiiiiiii ^^

2010-07-31T12:44:00.003+08:00

(Birthday pix Part III)

Pictures, pictures and pictures!
Me love my bitches much ^^

In great mood on thursday.
Super hyper in english lesson with Phy the GoonBitch.
And both of us kept disturbing people around us.
Hehehe and we 'smuacks' weiyan many many times!
We're sweet right? ^^
Okay not forgetting I smiled to a guy who past the class.
And he gave me the -whatthefuckdoIknowyoulook-! Laughsssss!!

And I went Zitong the StupidBitch house yesterday.
We're officially engaged in her room.
And both of us layed on her bed and talk and talk and talk (:
Hearts her a million, smuacks!

Okay it's time for me to go study now.
I'm going to the salon for an appointment later.
Till here thennnnnnnnn bai (:

2010-07-30T22:09:00.005+08:00

(Birthday pix Part II)

Just pix today.
My fingers are lazy to move.

2010-07-29T22:39:00.005+08:00

Gosh I've neglected my blog for a week plus.
I'm super sorry my dear 'diary'.
A diary is supposed to be updated everyday but yeps :/

Okay, before I start my naggy post, let's start off with..
PICTURES!!

(Birthday pix Part I)

Shall update on my birthday itself okay (:
Down to town with my lovely bitches, girlfriend and steadypompipi.
Trained down to clarkquey first and had our lunch @subway.
Bought stickys aftermath and headed to cineleisure.

Wanted to catch Inception initially but the tix were sold out.
So we decided to catch The Blood Pledge instead.
Omg it really did scare the shit out of us.
We screamed like crazy woman in the theatre :/

Phyllis was sitting beside me.
And whenever the scary bloody face pops out, we'll both grab each other's hand and screamed superrrrrrr loud. And I repeat, SUPER loud!!
But BRAVE me got immune after many shocks and I watched the last part w/o covering my face or whatever (: Best or what!
Hahaha but poor phyllis still didn't dare to look at the bloody face.
Lucky I wasn't that timid or both of us might end up walking with trembling legs.

Okay lot aftermath and then home @ around 10.
Had an short but awesome day with my lovelys.
Thanks for the outing and those hugs and kisses.
Muacks to all of you, xoxo.

Okay time to sleep dearies.
I'll update more photos again, soon I pinky promise (:

2010-07-25T00:49:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF. I'M 15 ALREADY FINALLY!!

Anyway, thanks people for the birthday wishes.
Love you all ttm (:
And I'll do a proper update tomorrow after I'm back home (:
So till here then bai!

2010-07-16T22:26:00.004+08:00

Weekends are finally here.
Phew, it's like the only time I'm able to take a break from school work.
This week hasn't been a good week for me.
But I'm glad everything's okay now. Thankfully (:

Finally met up with girlfriend today (:
My best girlfriend on the world!
Muakcs to you love (:

Okay I'm lack off things to update already.
Shall do a proper post when I get my blogging bug (:

2010-07-13T21:07:00.002+08:00

Life has been a bitch.
I'm not in good mood yesterday, today.
Hopefully I'll feel better tomorrow.
I don't want my mood to go on a roller coaster, it sucks totally.

And guess what?! My health's screwed.
And the worse thing is I can't figure out what's wrong either! F.

2010-07-10T21:59:00.002+08:00

Okay back home and I'm gna update again.
Feel like blogging though I don't have much to blog about.

Woke up at nine plus this morning cuz I turned in early last night.
Recently I've been feeling very tired almost everyday ):
I'll just fall flat on my bed before 2200 when I usually don't in the past?
I think there's like something wrong with my body clock. Gosh D:

Bathe and prepared and out to meet J'sister and Tongtong!
Lot one> Limbang macs.
Had lunch there and did my Amaths homework.
Guai or what! :D

And here's some pictures (:

Went to find mummy and went to slack with them again @ 6 30.
They left @ 7 and uncle drove me back @ 8.
Well count it as a productive day cuz I managed to get polynomials into my head (:
Gna chiong revision again tomorrow. But might have a change of plans?

Okay it's TV time now!

2010-07-10T13:33:00.008+08:00

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All the pix above and those in the previous post were from the picnic w/ clique (:

Let me recall what I did this week.

Monday was youth day and was spend with the clique @ marina barrage.
Picnic was awesome!!
Good food good company (:
Can't deny the marcus's sausages and fishballs were tasty.
But well his mum prepared them for him, so the credits goes to his mum (:
Not to forget casper's sushi, I can only say it's worse than julia's oreo cheesecake.
Hahaha whops! Sorry casper! :X
But still thanks to everyone for their effort to make this picnic successful (:

Tuesday was casper's birthday!
Clique celebrated for him in the canteena after school.
Had fun threwing eggs, pouring flour and bua-ing cream on him (:
Mad fun!! And junjie's aiming really sucks.
The egg that he was aiming at casper hit my knee and I got a bruise now!! ):
Although we were made to clean the mess after that but didn't really mind though.
What matters most was that we had fun together (:
After that was oral revision straight till six plus and home.

Wednesday had training and I was drained ttm ):
Studied for geog test at night and my eyelids were half closed.
Really supa tired but I forced myself to be awake and studied for 1/2 hour.

Thursday. Geog test was okay. Think I'll pass it.
Had oral revision once again, stayed till seven and home.

Friday was the day! O'level oral.
I was glad that I managed to speak well though I was sort of nervous.
What matters most was that I gave my best already (:
Aiming for an distinction? Well well..

Okay despite the fact that I'm meeting tong and julia'sister @ 230,
I'm still typing away happily..
I better go blowdry my hair and prepare already.
Rushrushrush.

2010-07-08T21:02:00.005+08:00

Boooooooo (N)
Supa tired these few days.
There hasn't been a day when I can reach home before six.
If it's not training it's oral practice.
And everyday by the time I reach home I'm like +_+ already.
Wanted to watch germany VS spain match @ 230am.
But I fell asleep soon again D:
Wlaoooooo and germany lost BLA. Such a disappointment ):

Okay I think my sleeping bug is here again.
I'm gna sleep as much as I could now and wake up later to study for oral.
All the way shermaine!!

2010-07-03T14:56:00.007+08:00

Came to blog since I've got the mood to.

Yesterday was a big boo boo (N)
CFN was cancelled cuz of the bad weather.
But yeps, heard that its gna be postponed.

Got a little too crazy yesterday in the morning.
Hahaha for some reasons I created a funny nickname for somebody.
So I kept repeating that I love 'DAMAO' to everybody else.
Kekekekeke, love damao 2 bits' ♥

Lunch after HCL lessons.
Bought our lunch from the new cafe.
Yeps the ham and cheese sandwhich was awesome (Y)
And their baked potato with chicken was great too!
At least they're better than canteen food?

Oral intensive in the afternoon from 1430 to 1630.
More of like gossiping session with Joey and Joanana.
Hahaha and whenever the teacher came in we'll just shut our mouths (:
Best or what? ^^

Rushed home and headed to school again.
And then when we reached there they announced that it was cancelled.
Waste of time. Heng we never cab to school or else waste money also.

So went over to slack at classroom block and took fullclique photos (:
Lot one aftermath and then home.
Okay not to mention I saw some (you-know-what)s.
Really hated one of them and I don't really care about the rest.
Well guess she think she's f-ing 'PRETTY'. Like what only *ROLL EYES*
(Don't assume it's you.)

2010-06-29T21:00:00.002+08:00

Omg blogger is sucha sucker.
Can you like f-ing work or something?

Okay just send some leadership assignment to Mr Cheng.
And my butt is like glued to the computer chair now I can't get up!! HAHAHA.
Okay excuseeee!! Stop it shermaine.

And school's alright today.
Was sort of rejoicing over some small little things this morning.
Hahaha and I was sharing my joy with everybody around me!!
I feel bad!! :/ *CROSS FINGERS, WHOPS!*

Stayed back after school to look for Mr Tan.
Got him to revise co-ordinates geometry with us (:
Sort of understand that chapter better already.
I need to really buck up on my amaths if I wna continue!!

Perhaps an update later this week or something?
Okay off to do some work right now (:

2010-06-26T15:26:00.002+08:00

Can't believe holidays are coming to an end ):
1 more day till school re open.
I'm gna sleep till late afternoon tomorrow!!
Cuz I'll have to wake up every morning @ 5.45 when school starts.
ME DON'T LIKE :<

Okay let's blog about yesterday.
I should say that I was occupied the whole day?
Morning phy'lover came to my house.
And she dabao mac breakfast for me, yay thanks luv die you!
Did our SS and geog project (:

Went plaza for our lunch and met elizabeth (:
Fat dieeeeee us, KFC!

Went back home around 5.
Prepare all these and head over to BishanJunction8.
Catch Toystory3. One word to describe, awesome (Y)

Home @ 12plus and fell flat on my bed.

My next movie will be karate kid. Jealous much? ^^

2010-06-22T22:19:00.004+08:00

Workplace at clementi tomorrow.
Super siannnn don't think can pei phy' already.
Cuz I'm going somewhere tomorrow in the afternoon,
which is like a very far distance away from clementi? Sian zipua :/
But at the same time I need money desperately, frustrated.

Initial plan was to meet J'sister and Zitong today.
Drop the idea in the end cuz they're meeting early and I've to train down alone to habourfront.
So decided to head down to FEP to shop with my mommy instead.
SHOPPING ♥♥♥!

Lunch @ graffiti cafe.
The wanton noodle was awesome (Y)
And the milk tea was not bad too (:
Worth the try.

Shopping aftermath and bought 3 pieces.
Mommy only sponsored partial and I forked out $50 my own :/
See why I need money so desperately now?

Okay shall control my spending from today onwards.
No more shopping for me *Cross fingers*
Whops :/ HAHAHA.

Gna go rest already bye (:

2010-06-21T21:46:00.004+08:00

Neglected my blog for almost a week.
I think I should at least do a proper update today?
Hahaha.

Out to ecp with phy'lover on saturday.
Both of us met @ around 11 and headed to bedok.
Had my brunch there. Fattening gosh!
I ate kway chap and shared oyster omelette with phy.
And not to forget sugarcane juice!!
I realise everytime I'm out I tend to eat alot!!

Asked around for directions and then took 196 to ECP.
Took a really hard time finding our way there, tsk.

Took photos of the breakwaters.
Decided to rent a bike cuz the distance too far already.
Super funny experience of learning how to ride a bike.
In the end also bobian change to 2 person one.
I seriously need to learn how to ride!! Any coach? Hahaha ^^

Went for another sugarcane drink @ the food centre there.
And texted C happy birthday. Lol ttfm.

Left @ around 5 and went to have noodles.
Hahahaha fat die us okay!!

Home to bathe & then headed out again @ night and finally home @ 11.

Okay I'm going out again tomorrow.
With that dumb J' sister of mine and zitong (;
But I'm having a headache on what to wear :/
Rah go rummage through my closet now.
Bye.

2010-06-16T15:17:00.011+08:00

Gna be very busy for the rest of this week ):
I'm only left with friday to finish some assignments.
Sad right?
Hahahaha but I'm going with a date with girlfriend very soon.
And I miss Julia'sister too.
She'll be back in approximately five hours time! Kekeke ^^

Okay anyway, I've tons of pictures which I haven't uploaded yet.
Shall upload them now since I'm like quite free?

14'JUNE, KAMHO'S BIRTHDAY

Wind De Brassion III

Okay here you go. Bye (:

2010-06-15T20:00:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY KAMHO CUZZIE.

Had an awesome night out with clique and girlfriend + stead yesterday!
Gave kamho a surprise when we met him! (:
Hahahaha he was super shocked and I bet he's touched too.
Right kamho? ^^
Went cineleisure aftermath and had lots of fun! :D

And the pictures will tell how much fun we had (:
More @ facebook, look out for weiling's too!
I believe she's gna upload them soon?
Okayokay ending here cuz I'm busy on msn ^^

2010-06-13T22:19:00.004+08:00

Photo spam uh? Hahahahaha.

Okay attended the band concert on 11'June.
With clique, girlfriend and stead (:

Met zitong in the afternoon around one plus.
Hahaha wore platforms and by the time I met her I had blisters already ):
And the worse thing was that I didn't bring plasters out!
Lol, zitong was having blisters too.
So both of us starting walking like some retards, hahahahaha!

Went up to elizabeth's house around four plus.
Touched up on our make up all these and off to lot to meet the rest (:
Waited for Aaroson and then cabbed to Victoria Concert Hall.
Motion sickness and I keep wanting to puke.
Anyway, thanks junjie for sponsoring cab fare (:

Guess what?!
Mark lee was @ the concert with his wife and daughter.
And his seat was just right in front of our row!!
Hahahahahaha best or what?

Got quite upset halfway. But who cares now?!
Well at least I don't. Hahahahahahahaha.

After concert walked to near citylink mall for dinner or I should say, supper?
Had a lot of fun on the way (:
Linked arms with girlfriend, stead and elizabeth on the road.
And elizabeth even said we look like 'Sex and the city' the 4 girls!!

Hahaha homed @ around 12 (:
Tired but fun day ^^
Love all of them 2 bits!

2010-06-12T19:05:00.004+08:00

BAND CONCERT 2010.

I'm gna forget forget forget.
I promise not to think of you anymore.
I promise to let you fade away from my mind.
I promise not to shed a single tear for you anymore.
You're not worh it, anymore.

And you, thanks for always being there (:

2010-06-09T20:37:00.006+08:00

Sorry for the lack of update, lazy to even touch the computer.
Whenever I thought of blogging, my mind shuts down. Hahaha :/

Okay suddenly I remember I haven't ate my dinner yet.
Ohemgee I think I'm really gna turn fat soon ):
For the past few weeks my dinner is always around nine plus ten.
Actually dinner is supposed to be before eight,
and I shouldn't touch any food after that!! *Whines*

Haha yups, have been really busy recently.
Went back to school for HCL lessons for the past two days.
Met zitong before lessons on both days, and second day!!
Guess what?! We saw S. Ohemgee he's cute ttm!! Beyond description already!!
Rightrightright zitong? (:

By coincidence saw C too.
Not gna describe my feelings anymore :/

Anyway I got my platforms yesterday (:
But cuz don't have my size already so have to order.
Should be collecting them tomorrow? Yay ^^

Okay gna have dinner right now.
Update again tomorrow or what?

2010-06-04T21:06:00.004+08:00

Gonna spend some time on blogging today.
Have been neglecting my blog for the past few days, haha.

Had maths lesson on wed and yesterday.
Quite okay though, able to understand.
Goodnews!
I can continue to take amaths till EOY.
Swear I'll really work hard for a pass, at least.

Alright, and..
SENTOSA with phyllis'lover yesterday after lesson!
Mad fun with her (:
Camwhored and gossiped like crazy.
That's what bimbos love to do right?

Okay took pictures for our geog project too.
Not gonna upload them I guess.

Suggested skyride + luge.
So me and phy bought the tickets.
Here's our conversation in the mid air.
(S for me, P for phy)

S: Ohmygod, phy, how, I very scared ): I scared of heights la!
P: Huh? You suggested to take this one leh!!
S: It's fun la but I very scared!! H.O.W!!
P: Take photo! Take photo liao will distract you then not scared.
S: Very scared!! *Close eyes*
P: *Snap snap*
S: Eh I think I my sitting position not correct leh!!
P: Huh? Now then you say?!?!

Luge was mad fun!! Though I got stucked halfway. Hahahahahahaha.

Went to play water aftermath. Me like ^^
Another round of camwhoring session (:

Shopped @ vivo awhile before heading home.
TOYS"R"US!!
Guess what?! My dear phy is afraid of barbie dolls! L.O.L
Had a great laugh about it. Whops, sorry phy! Hahaha.

Reached home @ 9plus.
Draineddddd ttm ):

And for today, went to collect mom's passport @ lavendar.
Then headed to bugis to shop.
Shopping is the best thing to do to kill time ^^
Bought the dress for the concert already.
And some other causual wear too.
I think im gonna go shopping again soon with J'sister!! (:

Okay enough of my lengthy post.
Gonna watch teevee show now (: